There must be cars in heaven 2

I told the girls at school the counselor and nurse were just outside the door, I still had not received conformation that he was really gone and I still had hope he had survived so I told the he had been in a really bad accident and that he might not be able to come home.  I told my girls there must be cars in heaven and one must be broke down.

Dad drove us home, the coroner called on our way they had sent the police twice to the house.  Dad called James parents for me Mom called our priest my brothers and sisters started coming over an appointment was made with the funeral home, they announced his name on the news.  We did not watch any local TV for a week I didn't want the girls to see pictures of his van.  My sweet girls are only 11, 8, and 6.  My right hand started to shake.

On Saturday morning l looked up the articles on the internet, you have to love social media it allows people who know nothing give their account of what happened.  For those who thought he was texting or on the phone he was not (I have the phone no calls or text came or went from his phone around the time of the accident), for those who stated he should have had on his seat belt the police report states lap and shoulder harness were in use.  He was not suicidal, and we believe in God and Heaven.

God does not cause the bad things that happen in our lives he is a kind and loving God. What God does do is use the bad to show us the good in others around us.

Saturday I started making funeral arrangements my parents helped.  My nephews searched the basement for a VW emblem that I could place in his coffin with him they gave us paper at the funeral home so the girls and I could write him one last letter.  Food and toilet paper was brought to the house.  The girls have pretty much disappeared into their tablets.  They watched Netflix a lot during this time. 

Sunday we went to church that was about all I could take just one hour when father said his name asking for prayers I had to sit down.  Every time I got up set my Mary came running, she was trying to take care of me.  My sister and niece stayed at the house that first week to help me and the girls my parents came over everyday taking me any place I needed to go friends and family brought food.

Monday morning I ironed his shirt for the last time.  We went to the church to choose his final resting place.  I placed him near the road because he loved cars so much he is also near the children's part of the cemetery because he loved kids.  On the way home the funeral home called they would not be able to open the casket he did not need his suite, just jeans and a long sleeve shirt.  The one I ironed was long sleeved.  Dad took his cloths I looked for a picture.  My cousin brought one uncle and two aunts from Indiana down.  Offers for help with Christmas started coming in.

Tuesday was the visitation, the video was very nice my brother choose the pictures.  My in-laws came into town that afternoon from Florida and the girls and wrote  our letters that morning.  I don't know what Mary and Jamie wrote they sealed them with stickers before they gave them to me Grace just drew pictures on hers. 

That night I meet most of the district managers for the state including the one who went to the accident and identified my James so I didn't have to.  Abra has done nothing but look out for the girls and I from the start of this nightmare.  My sweet Grace sat next to me during the rosary the video was playing and she told father who was in every picture and why.  The deacon who baptised the girls lead the rosary service.  Most of the family came back to the house afterwards.

Wednesday morning was the funeral.  I wrote the eulogy that morning.  My sister and niece helped get the girls ready.  Dad drove us the church.  My cousin read what I had written I'm not positive the readings were what I had picked out but they brought comfort, Father's sermon was very comforting.  After lunch most of the family came to the house.

Thursday was Thanksgiving we went to Mom and Dads for lunch Grace finally got her Turkey.  My hand stopped shaking for the most part.

Friday we we're supposed to celebrate our 16th wedding anniversary.

There must be cars in Heaven

As I sit here the day after Christmas looking at the tree I cannot help but think this year is ending in a way I never thought could be.

I will go back to when my world came crashing down one of the worst days of my life.

November 18,20016 it started like any other Friday I put the girls on the bus then came in talked to my husband as he got ready for work.   We were making plans for the next week when the kids were out of school. Saturday was my families Thanksgiving, Sunday church and then Monday we would leave for vacation ending the week with his family on Thanksgiving and Friday our 16th anniversary.  He kissed me twice told me he loved me and went to work.

After James left for work I took care of the dog and got ready for a quick run to Sam's then to the school to help out for the day, it was just a normal Friday until my phone rang. 

I was selling nancho's like every week when my brother called asking if I had heard from James.  He asked me to call nobody can get in touch with him there has been an accident on I 20 an Abra van was in it they can't get in touch with three guys James is one of them.  I called him it went straight to voice mail (not normal) I sent him a text when you see this please give me a call.  Then I made my first mistake I looked up the accident on the news sites 5 and 11 had distant views from the helicopter showing both sides of the interstate blocked, 2 had a closeup of the front of the van, an Abra van older model not the new boxy glass vans the paint on the front was chipped just like his. 

I immediately went into full denial mode finished the nachos cleaned up and went to the book room.  Two of the many sweet teachers at the school noticed something was wrong.  They tried to get in touch with the resource officer to see if he could confirm a name, I got the number for one of the district managers and tried calling him (he could not talk to me ) the officer was in court.  Then the assistant principal came asked all the parents (3 of us) to come look at the new computer setup in the office.   

I noticed everyone was upset but I knew some staffing changes had just been made by the county and thought that's what was wrong.  He asked me to come into his office,  my parents were there.

Saturday was in the 60's and Sunny we spent almost the whole day playing in the back yard.  Today is raining and there is a possibility of snow for the weekend.  I wonder why every body around us has the sniffles.  We have been very lucky at our house just colds and a 12 hour stomach virus.  Every time one of the girls comes home from school talking about who got sick I start to worry they will get it also. 



It seems that our house has reached the stage that everything is starting to break.  Poor James seems every weekend he has something else to fix, taking away from his time to work play with his Volkswagen's.  We now have a Camper, a bus and a bug that all need work.  Guess I need to see if I can find some good books showing how to make sew seats for them all.

School's out

It is hard to believe that School is out already.  I imagine that my sisters are having a very emotional day today 2 of my Nephews are graduating in the morning.  Tomorrow is going to be a wonderful day of celebrating these to young men, it seems like yesterday they were sitting in high chairs and eating Ice cream cones at mom's house.

My Mary finished Kindergarten winning the distinguished character award for her class, she is looking forward to first grade especially since she will still see her teachers when she walks Jamie to Pre- K. 

The pool is up and ready for use in fact we have already been in it a couple of times, now if I can make the girls understand that we cannot buy from the Ice cream truck every time one drives by we will be all set. 

If you need sun screen the anew really does help to reverse skin damage (my mom swears by it) and the skin so soft works great at protecting you from the sun and the bugs, my girls really like the one that goes on blue.  You can even get free shipping with the code:  FSMAY3

Authors Tea

Today was the Authors Tea party at Mary's School.  Each of the kids wrote a small paragraph and then read it to the parents.   They all did a great job, it really amazes me how much they are learning in Kindergarten.  I think we only learned letters and numbers not reading and writing.

We are settling in to dog ownership now he is still having a little trouble adjusting at night but other than that we are getting along just fine.  The hardest part is keeping the kids out of his crate.

Sweet Louie

After 4 years we have decided to get another dog.  He is a seven year old Chocolate lab.  Very sweet and pretty calm unfortunately he is afraid of stairs and we have a split level house.  My new morning routine includes coaxing a 90lb dog down the stairs every morning to go outside.  He seemed really smart when we first got him picked up playing Frisbee right off the bat.  He loves the girls as much as they love him and is a great kid  herder every time one of them would start to wonder away at my Mother-in-laws he would quickly turn them back to us. 

Getting back to normal

The holiday's are over and now it is time to get back to normal (if there is such a thing). 

We spent Christmas with my in-laws this year, the weather was beautiful though not really Christmas like.  I think it hit 80 on Christmas, the girls loved to play with there little cousin and seeing that side of the family seems we just don't make it down to see them nearly enough.  Mary being in school makes it even harder than before.

We are working on Mary's 100 day project for school now that would seem to be easy using 100 items for an art project.  She did make the 100 club shortly before Christmas break so she gets to go to the party and assembly.  I can't wait to see her get her certificate.


Avon has some new products coming out for kids part of the Naturals line the girls love it, and the bathroom smells kinda like fruit salad when they get out of the tub.

My Mom had knee replacement surgery a couple of weeks ago she is back home now,  This is the second knee and she is doing great with her recovery we keep teasing all the kids that they won't be able to keep up with her this summer.